Self discovery

In a way I feel like this blog is turning into a self discovery blog along with sharing my story of being a caregiver to my father. This is a huge deal for me because I feel like my identity for the past seven years has been that of a caregiver. Putting my dad first, taking him to the ER when needed, doctor appointments, helping him with IV medication at home if needed, bandage changes for wounds. The list goes on.

Today is day 20 of a 40 day challenge I am doing. I’ve posted about it before and it’s called #ShapeGoal40. There’s an amazing private Facebook group for women who are encouraging women, getting real about their struggles, and what their goals are. My goals haven’t changed since I posted them in the last blog and I will post the link to that one at the end of this post.

Tonight’s check in with Jen Widerstrom was just what I needed. My goals didn’t advance a whole lot this week until yesterday and today. The last week has been rough with having the upper respiratory thing that’s going around, dealing with a migraine on Friday, being called an orphan by someone, and attending my first grief class after the passing of my dad. I just didn’t really have the energy or drive to be motivated to move a whole lot, but I didn’t sacrifice my healthy eating and getting my water intake in. Yesterday I was still feeling blah and didn’t want to do anything, but I made myself get up and do Jen’s week three workout for the first time and I was amazed how much better I felt mentally after doing the workout. I pushed myself more today with the workout again and as the reps decreased, I made it a point to increase the weight, even if that meant taking a pause in between reps. I was proud of myself for pushing through and getting it done. I’m getting back on track this week and hitting the gym on the days I promised myself I would.

Another part of tonight’s check in was what do we look for in an accountability partner and what you need in your support system. What I’m looking for in an accountability partner is someone who will go to the gym with me and who will challenge me while I’m there. I also want someone who can help make sure I’m staying on track with my eating and water intake. So far I’ve been doing well with this on my own, but you never know when one bad day can start you back down the rabbit hole of bad habits. As far as me being an accountability partner to someone else, I think that I’m good at being a cheerleader for others. I had to be my dad’s cheerleader when he broke through a milestone in his health, like when he quit smoking after more than 30 years. I’m good at celebrating successes. In this process I’ve also learned that I need to celebrate my own successes as well, which can be hard, but I’m slowly learning that celebrating the small things will help when I reach a milestone goal.

As promised, here’s the link to my original blog post about #ShapeGoal40: https://lifeofacaregiver87.com/2017/12/30/shapegoal40/

 

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